When is enough- enough?

Many a stressful night out with my partner was caused by MY own lack of self confidence due to me being overweight and out of shape!

It got to the stage that I could not wait to get home because I felt uncomfortable in the clothes I was wearing and getting home meant I got to be in a tracksuit again....

My girlfriend would have spent half the evening getting ready for that night out and looked beautiful!

All night I wanted to go home because my clothes were so uncomfortable and it created a tense atmosphere among the two of us.

So we would arrive home to my relieve and my girlfriends dismay.

I would relax and my poor girlfriend would sit there in silence all night listening to me bitch and moan about how I wanted to be in shape again.... while I stuffed my face with junk food!

YES WE ARE STILL TOGETHER!!! SHE IS AMAZING, MY ANGEL!


My current situation that was effecting me was now beginning to effect other people around me.


The people I LOVE were suffering and it was my fault!


So I hit my heaviest weight I have ever been in January 2015.

105.5kg!!! OR 16 STONE 6

I wanted to stay at home and sulk and guess what else...

EAT MORE SHIT!!!

I was angry with myself for letting it go this far!

I was sick of ruining a good night out with my partner every weekend!

I was frustrated with my own lack of self discipline even though I was preaching

EAT HEALTHY, DON'T OVERDO IT, DON'T STAY UP LATE to my clients..

But I was! Now i was fat and a hypocrite!

My actions did not imitate my words.

I decided I had enough!

I set a goal

I made a plan

I followed that plan (with hiccups along the way)


My goal due date was;

By 22/4/2015 (TODAY) I will have lost 2 stone or 12 or 12.5kg so I can feel more comfortable in my clothes so I can
enjoy my down time with my partner.



GUESS WHAT>......I DID IT!!!!!!!

Fergal "self discipline?" Lawlor